1st of tha month

Its the first of the month and we still in this bullshit and it looks like its not getting better. I hate to say it but it looks like we are starting over at the beginning and that is a shame. We have been in this quarantine for about 4 months and the numbers have been going up, at this point its looking like we will be in this mess till the end of the year. I mean the year is almost over and we have not returned to normal. July coming around the corner and america being in this mess is really bad.We can spend time with our families out of thinking they might have the virus. It makes many problems for people. I for one have a problem, I have come in contact with some that has the virus. At the moment I am quarantining in my home but I have other problems. Will I pass the virus to another person in my house? How did I catch the virus? How will my life change now that I have caught the virus? How will my body handle it with the fact that I smoke? All these question have been going through my head each day. I am on day five from being in contact with the person and I have not had any symptoms. I hope I can pass it by as just a small cold but I know better. In my case it may wait till day 14 and hit me. I don't think I will die from it but I'm thinking about my mom catching it and she may die from it. I know I would never get over that and I would blame myself forever. As of writing this the person that gave it to us told everybody at the party we attended that he had a temp of 101. That was sunday. He got tested on Monday and he got his results on wednesday and it was a conformation. He is feeling better now but its just the fact and how he caught it is what makes me mad. One other person that was there has gotten the fever and is currently sick. That was Monday. Nobody else has had any symptoms and we are all waiting. I keep looking on the internet to see what is the days for it to kick in and I see any different reports. Some say 5 to 7 days some say all the way to 14 days. I'm just waiting for my time. I guess this blog may come in handy it a way to talk to people on the outside and tell them how i really feel if I pass on but I ain't counting on that. As I said before its day 5 and I have not felt any symptoms. I know people that joke about it and say oh yeah in the end we will all catch it and its not real its just government bullshit. You can say what you want to say but I know its real and know people with it. Its something that you don't want to catch or bring home to your family. So stick close to your family and stay safe cause its out there and people dont care if they have it. They will go places and you never know who has it. It could be the doordash person, the checkout guy at the corner store, hell anywhere. Its not like they going to tell you they had or have it. Again stay safe people!!! Put your mask on!!!