Christmas time in the covid-19

Hey guy, its been awhile since I wrote in this. The last post was pretty wild and took a lot outta me. I felt good when I wrote it and then felt bad that i wrote it. I can't say that I'm over that because I'm not. It still effects me and i think about it almost everyday but every day but I'm getting better with it, to just completely not even think about it but its hard.

I started school while I was away but I'm finished with school for now and got some free time. I'm sitting at a bar and trying to make a sense of normalcy in this wild world but it's hard. We wear mask everywhere. That's if you go places. I know some people have taken up to just staying the house. I'm not saying that a bad thing, hell I wish I could do it. I can for while then I start to get a little stir crazy. School has been helping with that and the fact that everything was closed. Now that things are somewhat up and running I feel better. I can start to move around again. I know its bad, you don't know who has it, you can't be sure the people you hang around with don't have it. I take precautions and wear my mask all the time. Here's the funny thing when I didn't wear my mask and went to a friend's house that was the closest I was to thinking I may have the virus. That was a close call. I had to have two weeks of doing nothing and worrying if my mom had it. That was wild. We came out good and I still wonder to this day if I should've gotten tested. I never felt the symptoms so I just took it one day at a time. The wild thing about that was out of everybody at the party only two people really starting feeling bad. Out of the maybe 20 people there four only had the virus, well got tested and confirmed. One lucked out and had a very rough time with it. As I sit at a empty bar with about 6 people in it. I wonder who here has been around someone with the virus. I recently got told that one of my closest friends has the virus and is currently doing ok. It's crazy that this shit hits everybody differently. He went home and gave it to his whole family. That's the messed up part. How do you maintain a job working in the field and try to not get infected, with all the cases confirmed in Texas alone. It's fucking hard but you still have to protect the one closest to you. How do people in the hospitals come home from that and protect their loves one? I say that but writing this I'm at a bar and it's not the safest way to protect my family and I can sit up here and say I'm outside, I got my mask and I'm six feet away but come on. We know that's not enough. The best way is to just stay at home. It's getting around Christmas and new years is right around the corner. This is time when we should be getting together and having fun but we know that ain't happening, both will be a bust for people who get together with people. I got a Christmas tree yesterday and bought a eight foot At-At for decorating outside. I can't wait to put that bitch up. Its huge!!!. I used to love Christmas time but after people dying and this I dont enjoy it. I just want it to pass and start the new year right. I havent bought a single thing and dont think I will until next pay period. The thing about this year since I'm not seeing any friends and not doing a gathering I can save money and only buy gifts that I need to buy. Anyway guys just wanted to jump back in and write something. Gotta stay active and keep the mind going right. You guys stay aware and be safe.